i know how you feel. someone, actaully a few coincidently, in the last year have died that were close to me. not family, but close enough. one of them was that kid that got shot up in southern cali in january. good kid, huge future, no reason to die...just some crazy guy that thought the car he was in cut him off on the freeway, so he pulled out an automatic, and killed 2 of the 3 in the car. sad. unreal. pointless.